content warning
hard feelings
one mention of sex
broad brushstrokes of abuse

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series: listening to meshsam
end – 2 =
hard lessons learned some

I am intentionally using gender neutral pronouns (they, their, them, etc.) and referring to them as “this person” to not reveal anything about their identity. I know it likely my abuser will eventually read this. I still cross paths with them occasionally.

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• the healthy place and purpose of anger
• the importance of enforcing one’s boundaries
• the importance of learning / navigating / loving cultural differences
• the importance of holding space for oneself
• the harm of unspoken expectations moment by moment
• the sacred task of tending to Self
• the value of others’ opinions on me (very little)
• how to cherish one’s friends and oneself
• the barking of a dog does not bother the bison
• the weaponization of emotional intelligence perpetuates the cycle of violence
• they who seek to blame point fingers only at themselves
• examples of unmet needs I have – migraines, structure, shower cap
• the importance of safety, and the feeling
• the importance of voicing one’s needs, loudly
• the importance of trusting one’s judgment
• the irrelevance of people threatened by the ways I navigate the world
• the value of gratitude in conflict
• how precious a gift it is to share one’s feelings to someone
• the boundless pleasure and joy of connective sex
• the power of “why?”
• the power dynamics of elder to learner
• the absolute unimportance of opinions from those threatened by my strengths of values – love, kindness, connection, curiosity
• the (ir)responsibility of unresolved feeling sharing

—2/11/25