as befits this piece – this took many hours to transcribe here while my body was overwhelmed with too much pain to do anything else but slowly poke away at my phone screen — with much peace, joy, and gladness of heart (:
bees – lost – can’t – escape – no – way – out – of – the – hive — H E L P
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Biting You Biting Me Biting
RIGHT INSIDE KNEE – angry people biting each other – stress/conflict DIRECTLY aggravates
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Slowly Surely Wearing Down Cloth
like rubbing two pieces of fabric together and slowly wearing them away – OR – pushing two feathers against/into each other and getting all rumpbled
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Smush Smush Squash Smush Smush
like whacking a piece of meat against a table – over and over – dead – unfeeling – big fat lump o’ nothin
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Sore All Over Why Sore
the deep ache of metal in cold –> frigid – brittle – penetrative – ache – prolongued – enduring constant – unending – (and heat) –> expanding – bloated – inflated — TOO MUCH – all joints – particularly ankles/knees/hips
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GRIND THEIR BONES TO DUST
the scrapy scrape of teeth on a popsicle stick – wood on wood – splintering – rough on rough – moving ungently — all joints – ESPECIALLY ALL SPINE/WRISTS — an old tree creaking/swaying in the wind
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Squeezing Things Too Tight Smallbig
IT’S TOO FULL STOP CRAMMING MORE IN THERE WE CAN’T HOLD IT ALL WE’RE ALREADY OVERFLOWING WE ARE GOING TO BURST – big PRESSURE from all sides – scrunching up face/eyebrows
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Please Stop There Too Much
everything everywhere all the time – too much too much too much too much — ear eye eye ear — CLOSE INPUTS HARD
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I Am Tired So Tired
the bone weary ache of trudging all day through snow with no relief from the wind and no end in sight – ready to collapse but nowhere to — path scarf wind cold
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Stabbing Blades Hot And Cold
inside right knee — a metal blade heated in the forge – an icicle dripping with frost
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How ToPull TheTight Even Tighter
nose – adams apple — a rubber band that is already overstretched yet still being pulled
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The Operation Table Is Profound
oh god — ELECTRIC – bumping wrong suddenly unexpectedly overstimulation station overwhelm
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Heavy Things Are Too Heavy
a dog who runs and runs and runs and runs and runs and can’t stop chasing the ball and their whole body (particularly legs in back) are trembling shaking quivering – all my muscles – deep fatigue – deep weariness — need rest and don’t know how — HUNGRY
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Bellies Deserve Lovely Beings Inside
a gourd slowly shivering in the sun – afraid of what is to come – unable to stop it – my stomach needs life goodness joy warmth breath of fresh air — ALLERGIES – SENSITIVE
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IDONT HAVESPACE TOLISTEN TOYOUR PAIN
my heart weeps – there is too much pain to hold – STOP giving me more – just be happy – just help – people
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Heavy Things Are Too Heavy
(my heels) – a tree without a taproot will surely fall – unless they have many other trees to support them — ungrounded – easily moved – easily swayed — fear of the storm coming
Healing Drew 