what is beyond

be

yond

be

yond

be

yond

what is gratitude

grateful

i is

attitude

what is attitude

attaboy

i is

altitude

higher and higher

higher and higher

moving

beyond

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feelings

lie

in

the

body

what lies

beyond feeling

silence

blessed silence

without need for names

without need for sayings

is knowing

knowing

is not in the mind

knowing

is in the body

¿ what happens

when the mind aligns

with what the body knows ?

silenced

blessed silence

¿ what happens

to all those

messy beautiful delightful desiresome

feelings

when the body knows

how to hold them ?

silence

blessed silence

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us am in ever more stages of solidifying / crystallizing / grounding. us found peace prior to hospitalization however there was a tenuous grasp. there were many / many / many big / big / big feelings before / during / after. us moved through these feelings — rather — us let those feelings move through us. there was terror there was desolation there was clinging desperation. there was sorrow there was grieving there was utter condemnation. in letting them all out there became more space to let gratitude in.

one by one the process wore their way through the mindbodyspirit like footsteps on stone stairways or fresh waters cutting ever deeper through land. at mountaintops on high or deltas of fertile ground, abundance grew. abundance of love of gratitude of connection to all things / beings / ways. radiant joy and peace and hope filled up every nook and cranny washed clean by the process. contentment in all moments / situations / circumstances. a great knowing of purpose of strength of limitations. a deep understanding of what to do and what not to do. an ever-increasing total surrender to the ways / wants / needs of the universe. a human life in service.

and.

now is the time to solidify / crystallize / ground even these. to hold a smile not on the face but in the heart. to wear love and peace and joy on the eye-unseen wavelengths of the mind. this too is the process. just as sadness or woe or anger need not consume nor define one’s actions, so too must delight and kindness and compassion be held comfortably without craving need to express. ¿ what lies beyond gratitude and love and expression of thanks ? silence. silently acting in ways defined by the choice to act in service of the universe. for just as it is not always the time to express angry thoughts, it is not always appropriate nor healing nor kind to express praise / love / joy.

¿ and what likes beyond silence ?

nothing.

the great void of all-being all-knowing all-loving nothingness.

—thirteen november twothousandzerohundredstwentyfive